2014 and so far it has been a fucking shocker. My thoughts are a little all over the place so please be patient with me over the next few days. Yes it is 2014. Yes I have already had my birthday and yes that too blew balls, understandably so under the circumstances, but I need to look forward and not dwell on the first week of 2014. If I did this then my whole year was going to be a disaster.
I decided that the best way to put the first week of 2014 behind me and start the year afresh. Should I make a New Year’s resolution? Probably not. I have never done it before so there is probably no reason to start now but what I do need to do is to think about what I actually want to achieve this year.
There’s the usual things like lose weight or be a better person but these sound more like New Year’s Resolutions than something that is substantial to making me a happy person. I need to look further within myself to what I really want to do. While dwelling on the meaning of my life I also realised that I need to –
Learn Turkish. Just enough to get by. Just enough.
Talk to Daughter. Teach Daughter. Listen to Daughter. Hug Daughter. Pre-teen angst. Mood swings. Negating my authority. Yikes. It’s a bitch. Deep breath Jane, deep breath!
Be more patient with The Turk. He’s had a tough first week of 2014 also. Maybe give him a break now and then rather than being on his ass about what he hasn’t done. Maybe.
Explore my surrounds. Turkey is not a big country. It’s smaller than New South Wales and yet I have never delved further than the beaches. I need to say it. I need to do it. Here it comes . . . ROAD TRIP!
Write. I was chatting to a friend the other day and she gave me some encouragement with my writing. “Keep blogging,” she said, “I love your stories.” Thanks Ris but I may need some more nudging from you over the next couple of months as I try and find my voice.
Alright so this list may not give me all the answers to the meaning of my life but it’s a start.
Hold on people. It’s going to be a bumpy ride.
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